unforgetfull memories

how to solve this problem..i hate this...everyday making me sad..

2010-10-15T12:20:00.000-07:00

this few day i am think this question
"i need to choose who n i dowan hurt anyone"
how i can do??
anyone can teach me or not..
i very xin ku...
i hope that got sumthing can help me...
or help me forget all about u two...
actually i love de is still W...
but i still love K..
wat is my heart thinking
why i so selfish..
1 people love two person??
who is the real wan who love me n care me more i dono
just know i love they two
how who can teach me??
if no me i think they two will feel better then now..
i hope that god give me 1 ans to put down or i leave they two??
i really hope that i can put down they two n tell them i am sorry
i hope that they two without me is more happy then have me...
i just din hope my life is better i hope they happy
if god wan me shorter my life to make them happy i will....
cause is me make them sad...although K dono me still love W
but W already know...
i really very regret wat have i done...
i hope i really need the time to make them hate me...
i really hope all of u hate me too...
i am sorry i know this sorry cant make the hurt build back the heart u got...
but i hope wat i do is try to not hurt u two too much...
i will leave u two ba...
i hope i can do this.. my heart always think of u two..
but i just need more time

i going to leave u le...

2010-09-02T11:51:00.001-07:00

today i write this is because i going to leave u le
actually my heart i dowan leave
but i have to
cause i dowan u fan
i dowan see u so angry of me
i dowan see u like this
i leave is because of you
i never think i will give up
and i wont give up also...
but i need to leave u now..
i wont disturb u anymore...
from now i wont reply u wont fan u le...
this is wat u wan rite??
ok i promise u...

izzit me is not a good bf??

2010-08-26T09:51:00.000-07:00

this post i think very long i dono wan to post or not...
but i hope that u see this post...
from that day u say u got bf i very sad til today...
everyday i dont dare to sleep i scare u will leave me now...
actually my heart is still with u but i dowan see u everyday no mood because of me...
so i told u that i leave u n be ur fren...
actually is not i this few day keep think that u will come back to me...
and i hope u happy...
cause i like to see u smile but sumtime u angry me is because u care of me...
i know what u angry with but i still do...
i dono why am i so stupid know u dont like but still do...
but sumtime i ask u u still love me...
i know u will say no!!!
cause u bluff urself n wanted to bluff me...
ok fine if u really think that u happy with bluffing ur self n bluff hold world then is ok..
today i write this is because i hope that u will come back to my side let me hold u tide...
everyday i just hope that i can pei u more...
i dowan argue with u anymore..
but when u no mood u will argue with me i dono how...
sumtime i wan make u happy but is wrong cause u will argue with me that time...
yesterday...i say that word is because i dowan see u sad anymore...
but u told me u quarrel with ur __ if u see u know ba...
i really dowan see u sad...i very worry about u...
i wan care u more
i wan be back ur heard de that goh kok yam...
i wont give up...
cause i cant give up
the reason i wont give up is
i love you...
hope that u see my blog n give me the chance to chase u back...

love

2010-07-04T02:18:00.000-07:00

love is a difficult thing to me..

i also don't why

but i just wan to tell that love din have correct or wrong

is just see the people love u or not

sumtime is because thing that happen u will choose to break

but the person don't that u because that thing only u choose to break

but how hard u love a person i think that u know yourself

just that if u told out will feel better then u told her

if u keep also doens't use

but some of them will keep cause they are too shy to tell out

some of them wont tell the true to them

and some are lier

i just wan to know how din't the think will go on next

i write this is because i hate myself now..

missing u in 1 week le...

2010-05-09T11:23:00.000-07:00

everyday missing u...
but i cant do anything
cause i have to just love u at a side..
see u happy see u smile only..
wat can i do???
everyday i cant sleep because of missing u..
maybe i am very regret
bit i still have to go by this way...
i wan u study hard...
anyway hope u study hard happy healty...
i break maybe is cause i love u too much..
but have to leave u
cause i hope u understand that me wan u do wat me wan u understand wat i did
cause i hope u study hard only think of me...
hope u know that i love de is u

am i regret???

2010-05-07T21:50:00.000-07:00

i dono now i doing wat n i dono i do it correct or not

but i can say i because of her only do this comfirm

cause i wan she study

i really dono wat i thinking

but i this if i not wan with her back

is hard but i just wan she study 1 dont think me so much

but now i feel she dont know wat i think

my heart is miss her is very sad too

but i have to choose this way

i dowan because of myself put her study away

maybe i should let her go...

that y i tell her to break...

but she dont understand wat i thinking

but i think 1 day she will know wat i do is for her good...

now i got abit regret choose to let her go

but i have to do this..

cause i love de is her...

wat ever can make her happy can make her success

i can put me away...

i have to go by this way i think...

maybe i can care her using 1 way

is ask her fren about her... i think this is the better way i know...

i miss you

2010-03-29T21:08:00.000-07:00

i this few day cant sleep well

cause everyday think of u

and summore i always wake up i see my phone

cause before u go ns u always very early wake up n msg me

everyday i see the phone also no msg

i am sad because cant pei u but my heart is always with u...

i keep waiting the time pass cause i wan saturday cause saturday i can talk to u

but the time pass so slow

i still will wait u

when i go out

i can just forget the time go

but also still miss u

wat can i do??

can someone teach me??

i wait n wait n wait

i very miss her..

everyday worry n miss about her..

wat can i do for her..???

i go out just dont think but go back home also will think

why will like that??

i very worry about her....

sweet moment

2010-03-23T03:37:00.000-07:00

last sunday...

i was hang out...

i feel very happy...

i also dono why...

haha

maybe is too happy to see leng lui

before sunday mean saturday

i cant sleep

keep thinking n thinking

scare ntg to talk or wat

but when i wake up

i faster go to bath n faster ask my bro got work today

cause i forget is sunday

haha

then i faster walk to bus stand

then i wait the bus the bus damn long

but nvm

cause i going to see leng lui haha

the bus come the bus is go kl de then i paid money

the uncle ask wan go where

i ask go to klang

then he give me balance

then til klang d

then i change bus lo

then at there le i go eat

but dono eat wan

drink milo think eat wat

but keep think of u only

then i eat chicken rice lo...

after that i go in walk walk walk

keep very kan chong

when i see u

i cant move my eye on u

keep see on u

then we go in cinema

i keep see u

and many thing o

u know i know can d

i very happy cause can with u

after 1 movie

the 2 movie more happy lo

happy til night cant sleep le

haha

my 1 thing already give u le

happy til i cant sleep o

then we go lavendar eat

eat nasi lemak eat til cannot finish then i help u eat

got ur kao sui o

haha

so sweet

then wait u go back that time

i keep wan take pic with u cause i wan rmb that

we go out is so sweet memorie de

haha

i wan go out again n .......

haha

my heart is always be urside rmb this

happy go lucky...haha

boring holiday...

2009-10-10T09:10:00.000-07:00

this holiday is a boring holiday le....everyday at home dono do wat....wan study also lazy o ...dono y le.???how to study le...?? can so ppl teach me ma???i dono how i wan to study and spm coming le....everyday still playing game... start from monday...i wake up see my kam ho sms den i go take my bath n call him go eat ...after we eat ..kamho come my house...i lend a book...but antil now read also like no read only...so boring...then kam ho was playing game....then i see kam ho playing games then i want sleep i call him when wan go back only call me wake up....then i sleep for awhlie he called me up.. n i open door then he go back...that time is about 5 or 6 d...then i play my facebook...after that i go take my dinner lu....after take my dinner i watch tv lo...so boring holiday also got de...haizz...if got car i sure go out d.....but din have lesen....after taht i bath n on9 lo that time is 10 sumthing d...but still dowan sleep o ...then i play game with my fren lo...but still very sien ...everyday play same game only...then that day i remember i sleep at 2a.m. then tuesday d...morning my fren come fetch me go jj....we go jj for sing song...but i very tired n lazy to sing also....so boring go there see they sing ...but nvm la i eat my break1 at there...haha...but very exp o...after that i go back the time is about 4 or 5....i reach home take a bath then go sleep for 1 hour then go tuition d...so sien...i like sick....then i faster eat 2 panadol...then at the bm class i feel very sleepy...but when go back i still can play game wor..dono y le??haha...but after that i at my room wan sleep my head pain o...dono y so bad....but i dont care la...cus wan sleep d ma...haha...but wednesday morning my head pain again but dont care lo still go eat lo...with kam ho...haha then after that kam ho come my house for play game de...but khai giap call me ask me can come my house to study ma but when he reach that time i also playing game..then i faster close lo....nvm we study for about 30 mint...khai giap ask me n kam ho wan go to cc ma...but kam ho say dono... first first i also dowan de...but study antil half suddenly head jam d... so i say go lo...kam ho still dono but khai giap paksa him go...haha so bad n take kam ho money 1....hehe...then we sit khai giap car go cc at there i see ming lee ,tee sern n 1 more fren la...haha we play our game when play antil wan go back we saw another fren then play together awhile more we go back d....so sien o i go back that time kam ho take his bicycle then he go back ...then i go sleep a while...about 7 my brother call me wake up d...cus my big brother birthday then we go celebrate.. we eat antil very full...but my brother say wan go play bkb...then i follow lo...is so full dono how to play bkb lo...haha...cant run walk also slow slow...haha...after play bkb i injurt my brother fren...actualy not me injurt him de...is he jump i move away he fall down de...but my heart keep thinking is me do de...dono y...so sad...nvm la...after i go bath i still got strength play dota...haha...then thursday i wake up at 11 also...then go eat chicken rice o...the rice just put at my face only i call the ppl add rice d hehe i go with kam ho again...but after then he also come my house...then he use my laptop cus my pc spoil d...haha nvm la ...let him use then after he go back i only use...use antil go tuition lo...haizz go tuition teacher teach that time o i sit most side n most infront o teacher keep give me see his backside only...haha...then after that we all cycle go back...is so boring lo... go back eat then bath then go play my dota again...haizzz everyday dota nia so boring ...bu friday i wake up at 12 sumthing o...then me and kam ho again go eat kfc...then i call len come to kfc cus he shop near there...then we eat n talk at there about 2 or 3 hour o...talk also so many thing o...hehe...then i reach home that time i ask yap wan go play bkb or not he say see wan pui his mother go eat 1...then i call khai giap, kam ho ,song chee all say can go..then i call yap again call him go after he take dinner he say...we go about 6 sumthing...so early...then khai giap call kau siang go...then i call chee keong go also lo...after play bkb we go eat...then yap say wan go give thing for his gf...but i follow lo..lucky i follow if not he dono how to scare d...haha...the road there no ppl car also... like no ppl pass by also lo...if call me 1 ppl go i also scare le...then he dono the road other his gf fren house...cus his gf go stay her fren house...then we find n find n find lucky we find it...if not no need go back d...haha...then we go back..i was tired...i reach home about 12sumthing..i bath i on9 for awhile o so tired o...haizz...i wan play dota de...but too tired d....then go sleep o haha...then this morning o we go play bkb again...but raining...haizz...then all go chee keong house...for play game...n sleep...then his dog so cute o...but khai giap scare antil keep jump up the table...hehe...then afterthat we go eat ba kut teh ...haha not nice de...dono wat ba kut teh lo...summore very exp le... we 6 ppl need rm 70 sumthing lo...so exp lo..haiz nvm la long time eat 1 time ...after that i go back take bath for awhile me play dota again...with my bro n fren...haha...i kill chi yung kill antil very song o...haha...then just now sleep for awhlie lo...haizzz..sleep antil 8 sumthing...i go down see got thing eat or not...ntg to eat nvm lo...watch tv with my bro...then my brother call me cook maggi for him n for my 2 bro...then i cook lo...then we eat d...then i bath... n play dota antil now i write this blog antil this time o haha...so late d...so sien

happy in chineses society farewell

2009-08-25T09:21:00.000-07:00

morning i have a call

but i already wake up

still lying on the bed

kam ho say he at my house d

i say i not cycle

then he go 1

then i go have my bath

after that i also fell very tired

but still have to go

when i reach school i saw my fren name len

he ask me where is kam ho

i say he go find khoo cus they two come together

after that we two go in 1

we two walk near the dewan our junior call we go in the dewan

but we dowan

keep waitin other ppl

so bad la we two

after that all reach d we only go in

their thing is so good

but the game

i think very disgusting lo

haizz ...y play this kind of game....

the game is use the spoon where 1 long string

then put in the shirt come out the hand there

is so dirty la walao

after finish game

we go eat

the food still can tahan haha

nice to eat lo

but the drink omg!!! sweet til like water nia haha

after that the give we all the balloon in side the balloon got handphone pocket

dono how they put in to balloon

haha is so nice

after finish that farewell we all go to aeon

we go there for green box!!!!

but my room only 3 ppl haha...

cus we dowan join other ppl so me n len n khoo 1 room

but khoo keep go out find his fren....

then me n len is the room lo haizzz

i dono how to sing song also

lucky kam ho come here

but he also dono sing keep eat nia

give money to eat o

then after we sing finish the song

we go for a while

then i go buy lolipop

the lolipop bluff my money i buy 3 for rm 3

but another side buy 1 for 60sen only

walao dont la bluff me

haha

after buy we have sumtime to walk

then walk round n round go back to cinema

sit near the cinema waiting for other ppl come out in greenbox

haizz wait till so long

then walk again we all saw a few chinese society member

then we all together go popular

me n chee keong finding for 4X4 cube but din have

only find little small cute

we wan buy de

but suddenly we say 1 broken cube so we put back

we two keep find but din have also after that we go kacau khoo n kam ho

haha they two listen song but chee keong keep close thier song

so bad la chee keong

after that we go back to cinema

then we buy ticket for a movie

the movie name the proposal

this movie abit funny

haha

nice movie but if u dont understand eng better dont watch o

after movie we go mamak

haizzz

all look so tired

but hold day enjoy le

all eat d then i give ppl play haizz

so bad la

after that i was thinking how to go back

haizz no car to go back

nvm then i call my father then my father fetch me b

when i reach home i have my shower

then o i on9

i waiting shien to on9 but i think she din on9

then i play my fb then i was very tired

after play fb i sleep lu

life change!!! to become more happy!!!

2009-07-26T01:06:00.000-07:00

now say many ppl are couple...
but no use for...
haha lolx
hehe happy cus i can be back single...
haha
single no ppl care about me...
is more n more happy lo
not like this few month..
it is damn sad
but yesterday we broke up lu...
haha
damn nice lo...
is time to study now....
dont forget spm is coming o...
study hard for aim good result....
hehe
i think more happy is yesterday

change about me!!!

2009-07-24T09:17:00.000-07:00

this few week i was thinking wat i doing....

it is so stupid...haizz...

everyday is bz with sms only but sometime feel happy n sad too....

i think from form 4 til now i was wasting my time in games...

everyday was playing game without study...

now i think i must very very hard working to study cus i wanted to change my life ...

and change about me too...

if u all not study hard i think u all will regret cus study can make ur life walk better...

do u think that spm not important?

is the 1 step to walk only lo...

do wat u wan n if u so long din give ur mother or father present pls!!!

do ur spm get all As to make ur mother happy...

this will make ur mother or father happy...

but if u think study not important nvm la

just do watever u wanted to do...

i thinking now i have to be a good boy to my mother cus i wanted my mother happy..,

so now i only can work hard to study ..

and try my best to do it...

do u all think i can??

haizzz...

is very suffer to me now but no wonder how i suffer i just wanted to try my best now

boring if at home but go out also boring n tired

2009-06-11T10:25:00.000-07:00

hehe
today is wat day ar?
holiday la!!!!!
1 thinking i was doing wat u think??
hehe
let u guess 1....
the ans is sure wake up from bed la
hehe
ok la
dowan talk so much d
today i go jj
is so sien wan
me kj n ck go only
3 ppl go see ghost movie
but when we buy ticket i din not know is pl18 de lo
haha
but nvm we still can in
after buy ticket i wan put some money to my maybank de
but keep cannot put lo
so bad de
haizzz
after that i go to kfc to eat
we go see the show
the show no ppl de
i think about 20 like that only
hehe
so nice n when we see that time
i keep let the ghost scare me o
so bad ghost hehe
but i know how to make my self wont kena scare d
hehe
is close ur ear
the sound effect is damn scary lo
haizzzz
kj n ck also scare lo
ck scare til keep say i now wan sleep d dont kacau me
hehe
scare say scare dont say wan sleep la
after that we go saber
is so sien la
play dota again
summore keep lose de o
haizzzz
after that i n kj go b n ck go back jj buy sumthing
if u wan know ck buy wat thing saturday u will know
hehe
when me n kj go back that time
the bus keep full de o
we wait for 4 round only no so full nia
but nvm la very fast reach klang so we stand lo
then we sit train go back
when i reach home i think is about 6 la
i sit on sofa then o
i fall a sleep o
haizzz
sleep like a pig hehe
til 7 sumthing
i only go bath then take my dinner
but my dinner is only 3 egg n 2 sandwhich
then i start play games d
n play play then i call my gf lo
hehe
so nice talk with her
after that she wan watch movie d
so i call her early sleep
the after that i chat with my loving n caring mei haha
so nice o
then i play my dota for few hour
then now chating with her lo
she so bad keep wan me write blog
but nvm i will do cus i also call she write blog 1
hehe
that all for today
but go out also sien no go out also sien
wat life is this???

how !!! how !!! how!!!

2009-06-09T10:12:00.000-07:00

today morning i still sleep like a pig
haha nice le til 1 sumthing my mother call me wake up
it is because maid come n clean my house
then i at my bed thinking about 1 girl so i msg her
then she reply me we two chat i feel very happy o
after that i take my bath
then after taking my bath ..i go out eat with kam ho
wan tan mee is very nice o
haha after that i think of her agian
then i msg her but she in tuition so i din not disturb her lo
when i at home wanted to play games that time she msg me
of course i will reply her la hehe
but my mood still in games there
so i play my games msg her but after that i was sleepy haizzz
then i go have a few mint sleep lo
after i wake up is already 6 sumthing d
so i take my bath n get ready to tuition
but i msg her also
til i finish tuition
i was chatting with her
but we saying this saturday i wan to see her
already tgether 1 month d we only see 1 time nia
the 1 time til now i was very miss her i know she also missing me
haizzz
but this saturday she say her sister dowan come to my school lian yi hui
n she also dowan come
haizzz
i very sad sad nerhh
then i thinking about 1 girl that is my mei
i yesterday was very miss her but i dono y also
maybe cus she will make me smile haha
i know she now is in camp
so nice in camp
enjoying in her camp
mei i very miss u
n miss her le
wat should i do to make her come
i wanted her come le
very miss her lo
mei wat can i do now?
i really dono wat can i do
haizzzz sad sad le
faster come back la mei
make me smile le
haizzz
yes tmr u will come back
faster come back
i wan u make me smile so much
mei i dono how to call her come to our school lian yi hui le
n o i very scare that she dowan me also
cus we only see 1 time n din talk about 100 word also le
only msg got la
our 2000 msg i think so
haha
but i dono how to call her go out cus she was stay so far le
how!!!!!!!!!!
how!!!!!!!!!!
how!!!!!!!!!!

about 6/6/2009

2009-06-06T10:57:00.001-07:00

today is a day i was happy n sad
haizzzzzz
morning i wake up
i was thinking about her
i din not msg her
so i when to victoria de lian yi hui
when we in there i was very happy
cus to know new fren
but when 11 sumthing
i sms her n wanted to chat with her
but she din not reply me
then nvm lo
i was thing that she is bzing
when me and my fren in that school we are happy
we are school to go there cus can see many new fren
but when we see thier performance
i only give 1 word nia la' sienxxxxx'
haha
when we going back that time
we go eat mcdonal o
is very nice cus we was hungry
hehe
after that we sit train
n we dono y will say antil fish de thing lo
haha
but it was fun
after that kah jie , khai giap n chee keong go out from the train left me n kam ho cus we have to go to telok gadong station
haizzz
but our ticket only til klang nia
but we two curi curi go
haha
cus our house near there
when i in train station i waiting my mother then my mother bring me to but so fruit
haizzz
i damn tired d still call me go buy fruit
but nvm
when i reach home i take my bath
then straight go sleep
til 6.30 p.m
haizzz
after that i go to my fren house cus he shift new house
his house is damn big le
nice lo if i got also
haha
but after i happy i go back
isee my phone
til night also din have her msg
i call her but never hear
so i dono how
but i tell my mei
my mei say ntg de la
haha
then i hear wat mei say lo
then antil now o
mei still wait my blog lo
haha
she dono draw wat come out
her 1 pic is title is laugh till teeth drop
2nd pic is ''1st pic very wuliao''
3rd pic. title is '' idont care wat u say (wuliao)''
4th pic. continueation of 3rd pic
5th pic....haha
i donop wat she try do draw
but she like very fun in drawing
haha
like ss only lo

this is i most happy day

2009-05-09T05:16:00.001-07:00

only 8 of may
have happen many thing
when i wake up i told i going to be late to school
but when i reach there it still have many time
when after school
i got meetting
the meetting in about our chinese society bot member only
we are discuss sumthing
and many thing happen in there
is all about how to solving problem
at there many ppl are talking n giving thier problem
also not solve i think so
but when i go back from school to home
i was very tired but i still need to go for tuition
antil 630
i was think about 1 ppl
that ppl always make me happy
that day i very happy because the ppl have done sumthing to me
haha
is so happy at that time
i wont forget that day
cus i have her!!!!
haha
is so happy that day

kuantan

2009-04-19T07:13:00.001-07:00

just a nice place for climb mountain
there are many tortoise
the tortoise is very big bigger than my feed lo
haha
summore of the tortoise is very small
but is very cute same like me
haha
lol...have many mountain like today i climb the mountain is to see the sun rise
is damn nice to see the sunrise
the sun is like the eggyolk
n o i take 1 pic is i hold the sun
is so small
haha
there are many thing to see but i just go for 2day 1 night
so haven walk all the place
n i take very less pic le
cus my fren all din take pic wan
haizzz
go there are good cus there have fresh air n cheap
haha
try to go there if u can
just go enjoy over there
there are many thing to buy like pau
the pau is so long
is about 25 inch
i only eat half also very full liau
my stomach cannot in the pau lo
there are many pic that i din have cus my phone no battery liau
haha
i need to get it from my fren
the beach is very nice
but is danger
i dono y also
the tourist guide say that is pretty beach but is danger
there are many rock over there
n the beach have many ppl playing at there
like beach volleyball
is so nice to see them play
haha

camp

2009-03-20T06:56:00.000-07:00

enjoy in the camp
is very fun at there
can make new friends
ha ha
next time got any camp remember tell me n bring me go lo
if not i very bored at home
ha ha
so many games at there o
so nice
our group leader is crazy keep know how to know girl me?
I don't know how to tell also abit crazy that day
ha ha
then other i don't know how to say
but i know that may jiuan n eric is very good and helpful at there
ha ha
and other team i don't know anyone also
only know that my friend are at thier team
any out team lay the station games that time the 1 games is burst balloon but i burst 3 de
so unfair
ha ha sophia din burst at all
n may jiuan also din burst de
give kam ho burst
and dont tell ppl that i play cheat
haha
cus the balloon cant burst de
but i press give the balloon burst
haha